lets do it down here like they do it up there.

Hello dear friends and family from Kona☺

I have about three weeks left until I leave for Nepal. CRAZY. Our departure date is September 22nd. Finances were due this week and details are getting sorted more and more as things come together. We are spending more and more time as a team together and praying into what we will be doing for our time there. We’ve gotten to talk to a team who just returned from Nepal and continually we are hearing that the harvest is ready, the people are hungry, and God is about to show us His power like we have never seen before. They saw the miraculous. The supernatural. They saw healing and salvation in entire villages and they are finding that the Lord is just asking for workers, He does the rest. More than anything they are seeing the power of the gospel. The power of family and what it looks like to walk in love together and have people notice that something is different about you. He uses us in our weakness, in our sickness, weariness, He does it all, we will just be the vessels. I’m beyond excited for this next step. God has been preparing us. Thank you for all your continual prayers in this.

My team had a crazy faith journey day where the staff told us we were going into the island and we were supposed to do what the Lord said and go where He said, with no money, and to be back for class the next morning. You can read about it here:
http://sarahborger93.blogspot.com/2011/08/faith-journey.html

Family is what this past week was all about. Our speaker, Adam Cox, from the Boiler Room, in Kansas City, blew my mind once again with what he brought. He talked for the entire week on the story of the Bible, the story of a family, of a Father who longs for his sons and daughters. I am learning how many times in my life I have been told that I am ‘a daughter of God, a daughter of the most High King’ but how many times I so easily skip over that topic and move onto the next without fully letting that change my heart. Do I know what it means to actually be a daughter? I’m realizing as I understand this, it will unlock my identity. This is what actually separates Christianity from the other religions of the world- a Father who is after relationship-but not simply a relationship, a literal family. Our God is yearning for a family.

Before time and creation even existed, there was a perfect triune family.

And for some reason on day 6, God had his craziest idea yet and says, “we are going to make man”. This perfect triune family is going to create something in their image because their desire is to share the goodness of this eternal family. He gets down on His knees and starts to create. Think about this- the God of the universe actually gets down on His knees and in the dirt he takes what He has spoken and begins to form you and me. He began to create what scientists still cannot figure out. And out of pure joy He began to create, began to order the chaos, all from His very being.
You are the pinnacle of His creation, formed from the dirt and dust- you are absolutely radiating the glory of Jesus all over you. You were made out of love, for love.

Heaven and earth were never supposed to be separate. he made a place for Adam to delight in, Eden, a garden of shalom where everything is as it should be. This part is awesome, the first “NOT GOOD” in eternity is here, when God cuts across and says, ‘something is not good, it’s not good for you to be alone’. This father of ours is from a perfect family, he is family, and his heart is for Adam to have that also. Adam and Eve represented this family He longs for. It was his pleasure to create you. His will was you and me, family.

Ephesians 1:4-5 “For he chose us in him before the creation of the world to be holy and blameless in his sight. In love he predestined us for adoption to sonship through Jesus Christ, in accordance with his pleasure and will”

The kingdom is walking around the earth on two legs.

He lived the life we could not live, died the death we should have died, defeated satan, regained our forfeited authority and gave us His favored place before the Father. He came to make us fully human-sin was never meant to be a part of the story. He created what He wanted to be. Everything Jesus walked in is now being done by people just like us. He says we will do what he did, and greater things. Greater things. Do we fully believe that?

The hope the world has to see God is if it’s set on display in our lives and relationships. Can we actually be a generation that doesn’t separate love and power? He dreamed and He promised to give you a gift (Acts 1), the Holy Spirit, to put His very father spirit inside of you and me, in our frail and weak human bodies. The most joyful and powerful and loving person actually dwells inside of us. You hold POWER and LOVE inside of you friends, it’s waiting to burst. Eternity is written on our hearts.

My life is a reflection of glory. It’s all for Him.

We are sons and daughters of a dad, and from understanding that- we can do missions and ministry and bring justice. From understanding belovedness. From this place of identity as a son and a daughter, all our ministry/missions can come. When you look at a person, and you know that they are another child that God’s after to bring into His family, you look at them differently. Your heart beats a little bit faster. You actually enter into His heart and His longing for them to come home. And you can fight for them, all out of love and intimacy with Jesus.

We have to know who He is so we know who we are. Our generation is waiting for a story. This is it. There is one plot. The kingdom family.

God is dreaming of family. He has always been after family. He had no need for it, but wanted it and desires it all out of pleasure.

Every heart is waiting to be awakened. Will we let Him reveal our identity to us and run after these children the Father longs to bring into His family?

My life is being changed. Sometimes I feel like I don’t have words to describe what’s been changing in my heart, but plain and simple- Jesus is capturing every part of my life. I am learning about this family, and also living it out with the most amazing people. I am learning how to be a community. A real, raw, genuine family doing life together. A group after Jesus Christ. Having a blast together.
That’s just a bit of updates on last week teaching☺ I miss you all and love you so so much!!!!!!

a bit of my heart.

SOOOO some women in my DTS are going after strongholds in our lives throughout this school and regaining power and voice as women. Last week we all came with something that we have always told ourselves, ‘we can’t’ do and we did those very things. Some read poetry, some sang, read journal entries, preached, and it was a beautiful night of breaking open and defeating these things that have held us back for a long time. I wrote this a few weeks ago in the prayer room. For a while I’ve felt like writing and the power of words are something the Lord has for a part of my future, along with photography, and I’ve never really openly talked about writing or shared things with those around me. So this is what I shared with these women, it’s a bit of my heart over the past month.


I am broken, but being rebuilt daily by the most glorious and intimate Father
I have clung to lesser lovers for too long, my own plans and desires
But He’s unraveling this heart and I’m letting Him have every inch of it
I’m opening my hands that I’ve gripped so tightly and I’m saying I am yours
The devils hold on parts of my life is being thrown out. He is done winning

Because it’s already been won
It’s all been conquered
The victory isn’t a question

for so long I’ve wondered if He actually knows me and my heart and I’ve asked the question ‘why’ countless times
I’ve convinced myself that his love is dependent on striving. But he is redefining love. This word thrown around easily and carelessly. And have I actually ever understood this word to the extent it’s supposed to be? To the depth and height and width that it should reach into my heart?

He is stripping my definition and replacing it with his.

He is my biggest fan. He formed me intricately. He knew me before anyone else, knows every part of my heart more intimately and sees it in ways I can’t, cares about my every hurt and struggle. He literally catches every tear, he is in the midst of my pain- close, not far. This father of mine actually has emotion over me. And all of this simply because he wants to be close and desires to love me, not at all because he has to. He choses to.

and my hearts been cracked wide open. It’s been vulnerable. It’s been two months of letting Him in. of letting walls down. Of asking questions,pondering, begging, and depending. Of realizing that without him I literally am nothing. Who I am fully depends on Jesus inside of me. and its been the most delicate and romantic two months of seeing a Savior capture the heart of his daughter again. The whole heart.

And it’s been a daughter relearning what it means to be found in the arms of Christ
To be worthy
what it means to be dearly loved, forgiven, redeemed, and sought after by a King
to be ravished by a lover
What it meant when a carpenter from Bethlehem carried the weight of my sin on his precious, fragile body, so I could have a relationship
So I could be free
So I could be a part of the most perfect, triune, infinite kingdom family
And the veil actually was torn
So I could enter in
And be a part of His plan of redemption
So I could see his face, know him and gaze on him
So the God of the universe could actually dwell inside of my very weak human heart, instead of anywhere else

He is furiously running after my heart
He is all that will satisfy me
He is all I want
There really are no words that go deep enough, or are real enough, to describe this man

This is my beloved
This is my father
This is my friend

He has awakened his love for me, and mine for him
And I cannot help but respond to this perfect love with all that I am

And the bread and wine will be lifted high in my life, the glory will be given to him, because there is no other precious name worthy of absolutely everything that I have.